Saturday, September 10, 2005

In a smashing mood

I'm hurt.
I'm angry.
I'm frustrated.
I'm terrified.
I'm confused.

Damn it I just feel like smashing something. If I were a guitarist this would be the moment I'd smash all my guitars as hard as possible.

Can't use friends to steam off. Can't use family either. I hate this feeling and my only smashing abilites are this f***ing blog.



I hate being the adult in a relationship of two adults. It sucks and I refuse to play it.

21 comments:

Purgatory said...

What is it this time

Hanan said...

purg. it's relationships. they suck.

oh and the pic in the previous post, i'm not the blue thingee. i'm the one feeding it, hidden behind the googles (how do you know how i look anyway? :P

nazzal said...

1- close the door and scream the lungs out
2- three glasses of wine
3- by now most of the bad energy is out . So i'll give u a cyber hug , and if u still have the urge to smash .... u have me .... hoping u r a bit tipsy by now .... ouchhh

shosho said...

If a relationship is causing all that trouble then it's better to put an end to it, but again what do I know about relationships.

But I noticed something: when we are not in relationships we get depressed, and when we are involved with someone it's hellishly frustrating. It's such an agonizing dilemma :(

Shopaholic Q8eya said...

Hope things cool down, look for a brighter side. HUG ;p

Shurouq said...

Hanan,
Purg knows things. Don't question his abilities.

And who needs serious relationships anyway.. Go "casual" :P

Love you, sis:*

Purgatory said...

Yeah listen to your sister, I know things.

Papillona ® said...

Hi Hanan, well try loud music in the car and sing untill you lose your voice. And you should SCREAM it'll help

hope you feel better :)

Hanan said...

thanks you guys. hugs most appreciated.
nazzal i'm not in orlando anymore so those glasses of wine dont come that easily. but if they did, it'd take more than 3 glasses to get me tipsy ;)
shosho its the ups and downs that make life/relationships so enjoyable, otherwise we'd all be living in heaven already. and who needs that?
shurouq. casual? does it get even more casual than this ;)
purg. i always listen to li'l sis.
sarah. loud music worked today but i felt a little awkward singing along in broad daylight in the mamsha.

Purgatory said...

OK, since you listen to her, then casualize me :P

Spontaneousnessity said...

me too =~{

Spontaneousnessity said...

and you know what sucks?! no shoulder to cry on!!! you know what sucks even more?? NO ONE TO TALK TO!!! yes ako shay ba3ad sucks more and more, I can't hide it =~{

I usually give like advices on this and it seems I gave them too much I ran out! =~{ I want to sleep and sleep and sleep and not wake up

Hanan said...

purg. ok. you've just been casualized.
spontaneousnessity. (damn than name's long) my li'l sis is always the shoulder to cry on. 7aram I keep burdening her with my shit.
sleep, sleep, and sleep is not a privilege when you have kids to take care of and work to do. otherwise, believe me i'd be in bed all day.

Purgatory said...

OK, what does that mean?

MissCosmoKuwait said...

Hanan...hope you're feeling better...whatever advise I give you...you've probably heard it before...so I won't go there...but I know I can say this...your frustration shows a lot of passion and that means you are alive with all your feelings...just imagine those people that are completely dead from inside...nothing moves them...now that's sad!...So I'm happy to know you're alive and kicking!..:)....

kwtia said...

Hope you're feeling better Hanan..and that maybe you broke something that needed breaking..

Jewaira said...

I have broken many glasses in my smashing moods. Sometimes it is a necesary temporary release.

But more than smashing things, I think at times like these I would like someone to hold me tight and tell me that it will be alright; everything will be ok.

And it does eventually :)

Hanan said...

purg. chance or unpremediated, occasional or temporary, known only slightly, superficial, lenient, indifferent, nonchalant, not formal, comfortable. That's how my online dictionary defines casual. does that help.

miscosmo. yes. it does feel good knowing i'm slove and kicking. thanks.

kwtia and jewaira i just broke a caserole by accident. does that count?

Alia said...

dunno what's wrong with you .. bas i think that your family is always there for you (and by family i meant your 2 sisters & me) so steam off girl, or just smash something .. which would help alot.

Hanan said...

alia. i know u guys r always willing to hear my whining. thanks love

ValenciaLover said...

i'm offering you everything i have to smash. honestly, it's all yours, just let me feel that we're close AGAIN. or was it just me who thought we were close?