Tuesday, April 25, 2006

You know you're old when ...

... you no longer enjoy your own company.

When I was younger, I loooooved staying in my room all by myself. I mean what's not to love? I had my books. I didn't need to acommodate anyone else. It was time for me and me only. And what better company can there be?

Up till very recently, I loved being alone. Ba3ad shasawee I'm a hermit by nature. Utterly anti-social. I'm the boring one you find sitting quietly in social gatherings. The one who can never start a conversation and when addressed responds briefly. So quiet and withdrawn that people often mistake my inability to mingle as excessive pride "shayfa roo7ha."

But lately, maybe due to the fact that I live in a house with two boys who are rarely home themselves, I get bored staying home alone. It's too quiet. I think I need noise in my life. Maybe staying alone in my room before was doable because the house was always noisy and you don't get this sense of being alone.

Or maybe ...

maybe ...

maybe ...

Dare I say it?

maybe ...



... it's a sign of getting old :)

13 comments:

Jacqui said...

I don't think of you as anti-social :P You're the talkative one :P You admitted it yourself ;p

Noura said...

God I can totally relate to that! When i was in highschool I used to WANT to be alone..I'd lock myself in my room and read one book after the other...and I was the "shayfa roo7ha" coz I wouldn't talk much, but the reason why I wouldn't talk is coz I used to be shy or just wouldn't know how to start a convo! Now I can't stand being alone...I don't think it's age...I think times have changed!

Hanan said...

jacqui. I'm a talkative teacher since when I teach I'm in my natural habitat.

shopa. a new 'old and bored' phase. Well. I don't like it. Does it end?

obsessive. Times have changed!! A perfect reason. So it's not me. Its times. I like you oc.

talisman. I had to delete your abnoxious comment coz i just don't like it.

ScarlO said...

Or perhaps you should get a house pet. They make life less boring.
I have four cats, one of them recently gave birth to five.

Here it's so noisy you can't even read. Uh, and I very much understand the 'shayfa ro7ha' part .. i get that a lot too :-\
I just don't go anywhere because I don't think I fit in anywhere.

Hey .... I can make a good story out of your post :-D I actually might do. Like, if you allow me to ..?

Alia said...

you?? anti-social?!?!?!?!??

3ayal what em I?

& "I'm the boring one you find sitting quietly in social gatherings. The one who can never start a conversation and when addressed responds briefly. So quiet and withdrawn that people often mistake my inability to mingle as excessive pride "shayfa roo7ha."

that defenetely discribes me not you

AyyA said...

Take a couple of wine glasses and keep to your chosen company and you’d be the diva of them all, and remember; old is a state of mind, if you think old, you become IT ;)

bo_sale7 said...

السلام عليكم ....

التحولات النفسية هي نتيجة لتحول الاهداف والقيم .....الانسان يكون في بداية حياته صاخب ومنفتح وثري بالحب ....ونادرا ما يكون انعزالي لان حب التعلم والمغامرة يتملكه ...لكن عندما يبدأ بالتقدم عمريا ..يرى ان تجربته ونتيجة مغامراته اوصلته الى قناعة بان الاستعجال او الانفعال له اثار سلبية اكثر منها ايجابية ...فيبدأ بالانعزال ومقارنة تجربته وخبرته مع تجارب الغير ......

لكن الحقيقة الثابتة هي..... لكل مرحلة عمرية جمالها وزهوتها ولذتها ....ليس عيبا ان يكبر الانسان او ان يهرم ...لكن العيب ان يخجل من هذه الحقيقة الطبيعية المحتومة ...استمتعي بكل نفس .....الحياة اذا لم نحس بحلاوتها ...فما الفائدة اذن ؟

احتراماتي

Anonymous said...

I believe you're right. Noise and people will make you crave your own company again. It's not age. It's never age ;-)

Shurouq said...

You're not anti-social.. shy maybe :)
And you're not quiet, you are garga :P

Ms. Sarah said...

"I loved being alone. Ba3ad shasawee I'm a hermit by nature. Utterly anti-social. I'm the boring one you find sitting quietly in social gatherings. The one who can never start a conversation and when addressed responds briefly. So quiet and withdrawn that people often mistake my inability to mingle as excessive pride "shayfa roo7ha." "

OMG.. that's me!

shayfa roo7ha is a phrase i always seem to get :/

Hanan said...

scarlo. I tried a pet. Cat. Didn't like it much. Needs too much care. And feel free to use this in your post.

alia...really? you?

sarah. hmmm. maybe.

ayya. don't have wine unfortunately. and my chosen company don't drink it. Losers :)

bo sale7. but its the opposite with me. I was secluded when younger, more outgoing now.

teller. yeah maybe. I might hate it and crave this quiet once I live in crowds again.

Shurouq. me? garga? no way girl. only around you guys not with newly acquired acquintances. Not even with close friends.

swair. let's form a club.

Anonymous said...

"mistake my inability to mingle as excessive pride "shayfa roo7ha."
BUT!!!!!!!!!!!!
hanona!! u are "shayfa roo7ha" :P y7glech though. ok ok sorry, mo shayfa ro7ech.... shwaya bas :P ya3ny mmm 79.3%

Wilted_Roze said...

w0o0ow soo touching really I myself somethimes want to bee alone to figure things out u know and just space to my self.

u need to turn on ur sony hehe