Monday, May 07, 2007

Shisha-induced Thoughts

I smell like shisha. I used to really hate that stuff. (Relics of an ex-relationship that is only now fading away) Now I'm finding it easier to handle spending time with shisha smokers. The minty flavor of tonight's shisha actually appealed to me. I hope this doesn't develop into a smoking habit. I hate smokers :) (Not my sister of course, she can indulge all she wants in her phallic symbols, I still love her)



Reading Morrison's nobel lecture in class, and forcing a deep analysis of a bird in the hands of kids, I finally agreed with a student that sometimes Ignorance is bliss.
Who came up with such atrocity? Ignorance is never bliss. Now knowledge might be a disaster. You might not accept that knowledge. Hell, you might even hate that knowledge. But does that make ignorance such a bliss?
I would always prefer knowing to not knowing. Even if knowing can cause a turmoil within me.
Besides, I'm a caring (or is it curious?) person by nature. So naturally I always want to know.



A simple lunch with sisters and cousins is never a simple lunch :) Laish il fathayi7? And why is it that we seem more willing to talk about our lives in the midst of crowds of people while in the comfort of each other's houses, with no eavesdroppers, we tend to be reserved? (We is my cousins and I, so if this doesn't apply to you, my dear reader, mo lazim) It is as though we believe that the noise will dim our secrets and distort the full image we are presenting into a distorted, fragmented one, more easy to accept than a full and unified picture.

Thursday, April 12, 2007

Monday, April 02, 2007

الصبيح من دون ملفع أوحجاب

the paternalism that claims woman for hearth and home defines her as sentiment, inwardness, immanence. ... when one offers the existent no aim, or prevents him from attaining any, or robs him of his voctory, then his transcendence falls vainly into the past--that is to say, falls back into immanence. This is the lot assigned to women in the patriarchate. ... To identify Woman with Altruism is to guarantee to man absolute rights in her devotion, is it to impose on women a categorical imperative. (Simone de Beauvoir)





Imagine what would've happened if the minister of education walked into the parliament with her head 'forcefully' covered.
Imagine being told that you have to cover your head to walk into your office, to walk into your classroom, to go shopping, to go out for dinner, to walk on the beach ...
Imagine being told that you can't go into your office because it is shared by a male colleague, you can't go to class because it is not fuly segregated, you can't go shopping or walk on the beach because your place is at home.

Why imagine? It does not seem so far-fetched at this stage, does it?

I salute our Minister of Education for her refusal to give in, for taking the oath with her hair revealed (the shame! the disgrace!), in the midst of yells and screams of those ignorant MP's

Monday, March 19, 2007

Due Date (the approved version)

I still haven't finished the book which I postponed our meeting to finish. Over 300 pages left to read in 2 days. Doable, but unlikely.

I have to go register to the NBK marathon but driving into Salmiya at this hour is not an attractive idea, so I'm procrastinating by blogging.

I'm hungry and my stomach makes very loud demands when I'm hungry. That can be a real annoyance at times. I fed it a damn peanut butter and jelly sandwich but it still groans and moans. So I decided not to submit to it. If it throws temper tantrums to get what it wants, I have to teach it a lesson. No food for you until you hush.

I would satisfy it by a visit to my favorite restaurant, except that lately the service at Le Notre has been deteriorating noticeably. Food is still good, but those waiters are clueless.

So it's patience my noisy stomach. You shall be fed once I'm done doing what I'm doing.

I can eat cereal any time of the day. Can you?

Thursday, March 01, 2007

Due Date

Dearest Swair already posted on this act of KU dumbness. And I plead guilty of this act.

Unfortunately, this poster, brilliant as it is, will not be on display on the esteemed walls of the Faculty of Arts. The reasons: It will cause tongues to wag, eyebrows to be raised, drawing unnecessary attention to our day. I wasn't told not to use it, but I was adviced to choose my battles wisely. Not all publicity is good publicity. And I caved in.

Personally, I still fail to see the big deal here. It's a pregnant woman. Women do get pregnant occasionally. What's controversial about that?

* Poster was done at KU printers and picture shot by my phone camera. So quality isn't as good as the one I received from the designer.

Saturday, February 17, 2007

The Time Traveler’s Wife

We read The Time Traveler’s Wife this month. The whole boy meets girl scenario is confused here. 36 year old boy time travels to where 6 year old girl lives with her family. (The actual difference between the two is 8 years) He tells her that in the future she will be his wife. During the next 12 years of girl’s life, boy keeps ‘visiting’ her from different time frames and by the time girl is 18, she is totally into boy. Now you tell me how messed up is this?

My reading group was split. Some saw boy as the Romeo of our time, while others thought our Romeo was manipulating our Juliet. I thought it was a fun book to read in terms of how the writer arranged the chapters and kept us captivated. The dialogues are at time boring, but mostly appealing and rather significant in their simplicity. But I thought boy is one messed up kid who started time traveling at the age of 5 and by the time boy is 15, we read this:
“I’m in my bedroom with my self. He’s here from next March. We are doing what we often do when we have a little privacy, when it’s cold out, when both of us are past puberty and haven’t quite gotten around to actual girl yet. I think most people would do this, if they had the sort of opportunities I have. I mean, I’m not gay or anything.”

And our messed up kid decided to mess up another kid in the process.

But think of the potential this would offer. If you know your future husband/wife, you would time travel to when they were kids, and mold them any way you wish. So by the time they are old enough to be ‘enjoyed’ (because our noble hero is no pedophile and he refuses to touch our girl until she turns 18), they have been totally shaped the way you want them. What a delightful idea.

My travels plans aren’t coming through. I think I will just end up using the holiday to relax. I am in dire need of this. These last few weeks, or months(?), were rather hectic. Were? Are. They are still going. But I like hectic. I like busy. Between classes, preparation for English Day, book club, and timetable hassles, I am left with barely enough time to watch my current TV addiction: McDreamy meets McSteamy is where I’m at right now. And Lost is back so we have that as well.

I am still on the look for keyboards that we can rent for use during our rehearsals for and at the actual English Day. These things are not so easy to come by. But the rest is going smoothly. Plays are being rehearsed, stage being checked and everyone is doing a wonderful job preparing for this day.

Thursday, February 01, 2007

Piano...Books...Paris...Rome


There’s a piano somewhere at KU that I’m trying to locate. I heard we had some kind of a tiny music room somewhere in the hidden niches of our esteemed university. But finding it might be a problem. Can you actually lose a piano?



University policy dictates that new orders on books have to go through department council to actually be approved, after which an order is submitted, and pending the university budget, I might or might not be getting the books by March which is when I’d be needing them. Our department is on vacation now so nothing can be done till February 10th which would definitely be too late. Now you might ask why I haven’t done that before. And the answer would be that I’m a procrastinator. Lazy and laid back and always leaving things till the last moment. So what to do? I might have to ask students to either get the books online or make copies of them, which I really hate doing.


.....Paris or Rome?




Tuesday, January 16, 2007

Solitaire, hair, rain and work

I forgot to take my coffee mug to the classroom to entertain me during those most dull 2 hours of my teaching: exam time. So what does dear teacher do? Use the class computer to play solitaire and minesweep. Well it's an essay exam anyway so I don't really have to watch them like a hawk :)


The rain makes my hair look frizzy. And sometimes, just sometimes, I like that. Frizzy hair is hot. Just like long legs. Any relation between the two? No relation needed.

Spring terms resolution: less writing assignments, more time to work on my own projetcs. I pulled a similar resolution this fall: Less playing with the syllabus, stick to some old material so there will be more time to work on my own projects. But then I drowned myself with committees and other administrative jobs. When will I learn? More me time, less them time. ( I should learn from an old friend of mine. Me time is really limited in my life)

Have fun with this. Test this file out with a few people. Who can hear it? Who can't? Click here

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

3 days in luxor

Luxor was beautiful. Family was amusing. Trip was relaxing.

Exams … Papers … Timetables … Class notes … Council minutes … Conferences … Publications …

And that’s not to mention all the personal havoc in between. So what to do when jammed, when squeezed, when pressured? …

BLOG

Enjoy Luxor. I did.


الكرنك

النيل

الترزي


المكوجي

كشري بندق



الشاااااااااااي

Thursday, December 28, 2006

Let Veronika Die


Coelho’s Veronika was the topic of discussion in today’s book club. I’d have to say that I’m surprised at the fame this author’s getting. The book was made of one cliché after another. A group of people in a mental asylum come to enlighten us to the fact that “all of us, one way or another, are mad.” Self-help, inspirational, spiritual how to appreciate life books are boring. Where’s the juice?

Veronika decides to die. Dr. Igor steps in and shocks her into wanting to live. Now what gives a person the right to decide for others? She made her choice. Who is he to intervene?
If someone you love or care about wants to do something that you think is harmful, how far would you go to stop them? Do you have the right to interfere in other people’s lives based on your own way of deciding what’s good and bad, what’s right and wrong? What if that’s not how they see things?


Eh ... too late to continue this post.


Now I have to decide on our book for next month.

Monday, December 25, 2006

Merry Christmas

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Poster seen all around Kaifan today.

Friday, December 22, 2006

Thursday

Play dough figures.
Omar continues to prove his artistic talents (while his younger bro's obsession with balls continue)


Their mother's talent shows itself here. Pecan pie was amazing. I'm craving a piece to end my day.

I like massages. Do you? Foot massages are probably my favorite (or maybe the most effective turn on ... that and hand massages. But hey, a full body massage always makes my day as well :)

What's your favorite, most erogenous body part to be massaged?

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My mother's occasional heart pain frightens me :s

Thursday, December 07, 2006

Notes and Thoughts on Film Week

This has been a very enjoyable week. Tiresome, but very enjoyable. I offer a few comments on each day:

Day 1: Frontiers of Dreams and Fears.
A touching movie, as all movies are that involve children struggling in a hostile world. Mona and Manar, in their open display of emotions, naturally perplexing for teenage girls, made even more so by the complexity of life in the camps, succeeded in touching the heart of every member of the audience. A dilemma in itself, as one viewer commented, since in an age when struggles between Palestine and Israel are intensifying, in an age where we are becoming brutally aware of the futility of this struggle and of the need to find a way that enables the two nations to live in peace, in an age where younger people are drawn into this unfair struggle, it is important to remember that over the past 50 years of conflict, Israel has been winning, and Palestine losing. Maybe a movie like this should touch our emotions in a more subtle way, reminding us that what these children, what all children need, is a peaceful environment.

Day 2: Rachida.
I fell in love with Rachida. Her face, her sadness, her joy, her fear… It was an overwhelming film. Being a teacher myself, films about teachers always attract me. But the attraction to this movie goes beyond Rachida being a school teacher. ‘Thugs,’ as they were aptly termed by a viewer, attack the streets randomly and with no apparent motive, with the mere intention to hurt. And they hurt. Boys with guns. What a dangerous combination. Add to that the element of despair, and the combination becomes deadly. Rachida the teacher, Rachida the woman, however, continues her life, in spite, or maybe because of, these thugs’ incessant attempt to ruin life.

Day 3: Women Who Loved Cinema.
Egypt in the 20s. Such a long time ago. Such glory it had. What happened to it all? Where did all this go? What a wonderfully enlightened place to be at, this Egypt of the 20s. Democracy, social reform, whatever you want to call it, it always damages culture. The Egypt of Kings was a more cultural, artistic, intellectual Egypt. Why does art conflict with humanity?

Day 4: The Circle.
The first reaction to this film was from an Irani woman, angered by the ugly picture the film seems to give of Iran. To her, the picture is distorted and false. To her, Iran is not a prison for its women. But to the rest of the audience, this is indeed the case with Iran as it is the case with most, if not all, Islamist countries. Women without men just can’t do. The Circle intensifies this as it presents us with women who escape prison, women who give birth in prison, women who are pregnant without a husband. There seems to be this utmost denial towards admitting that we hurt. That we might be unjustly treated. That we might be oppressed. We are a nation who refuses to ‘air our laundry’ it seems. We do not have our Oprah and our Springers (such stark comparison). We do not seem to be ready, yet, to admit our own weaknesses.

Day 5: Lebanon: Bits and Pieces.
An interesting exposition of the mentality of a few Lebanese living in the early 90s when the Civil War has just ended but people’s morale were still not very high. Optimism was still a dream. Religious identity and national identity become a debate as we meet those Lebanese men and women who do not yet know if they are Muslims or Christians. If they are Arabs or Lebanese. If they should speak Arabic or French. If they should instill Western liberal ethics in their children, or Eastern traditional ones. Identity became an interesting debate in the discussion that ensued and our film week director ended with what I thought was an insightful and challenging argument, insisting that this holding on to one’s identity needs to be questioned. This need to assert I am Lebanese, I am Kuwaiti, I am Muslim, I am Christian, should all be debated as to its purpose in a global world where we are all mestizas*.


* Gloria Andalzua’s La Frontera/Borderland is an interesting text to read around this issue.

Thursday, November 30, 2006

Film Week at KU

The Department of English Language & Literature
Presents

Film Week
Featuring
Middle Eastern Women in Film

2-6 December, 7 pm
Abdullah Al-Otaibi Bldg., Basement
Kaifan Campus, Kuwait University

2 December 2006
Frontiers of Dreams and Fears
Directed by Mai Masri
Featuring Mona Zaaroura and Manar Majed Faraj
Palestine, 2001, 56 minutes

3 December 2006
Rachida
Directed by Yasmin Bachir-Chouikh
Featuring Ibtissem Djouadi and Bahia Rachedi
Algeria, 2002, 100 minutes

4 December 2006
Women Who Loved Cinema, Parts I & II
Directed by Marianne Khoury
Featuring Nadia Wassef
Egypt, 2002, 116 minutes

5 December 2006
The Circle
Directed by Jafar Panahi
Featuring Fereshteh Orafai, Nargess Mamizadeh, and Maryam Almani
Iran, 2002, 91 minutes

6 December 2006
Lebanon: Bits and Pieces
Directed by Olga Nakkas
Featuring Various
Lebanon, 1994, 60 minutes

*Free Admission
**English subtitles

Monday, November 27, 2006

Ali Zawa

Ali Zawa is a wonderful movie. If you get the chance to see it, my advice: don't dare miss it.
Childhood is presented in such a fierce, possibly even grotesque light. These are children abandoned to their own whims, forced by this abandonment to grow beyond their young years. Kwita, Ali, Boubaker and Omar would touch your heart for sure. Trust me.

It's amazing what a few cans of glue does to those kids :)

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Selections for our English Day are approaching and I'm already dreading having to turn a few people down :( "No" is not the easiet word for me to say.

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OK now for more personal matters. If your friends repeat the same attack on your personality, does that make that attack valid? Does that mean you have to try to change? And if you do want to change, is that even possible? But then is it also possible for you to expect your friends to take you as you are (ya3ni no refunds or exchange here)?

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Been craving Salzburg lately: that restaurant next to that museum up above the clouds, rain drizzling slightly, wine teasing us like that drizzling rain, and the company of my 2 favorite sisters and my 2 favorite parents (yes I only have 2 but I swear they would be my favorite still), and my Nunu:


Monday, November 13, 2006

Kuwait CineClub

نادي الكويت للسينما
Kuwait CineClub
برنامج ديوانية الأفلام
Film Diwaniyya Program

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19th of November
الجنة الآن

للمخرج : هاني أبو السعد
فلسطين
about the film
Paradise Now
Directed by: Hani Abu-Asaad
Palestine
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26th of November
علي زاوا
للمخرج : نبيل عيوش
المغرب
about the film
Ali Zawa
Directed by: Nabeel Ayoush
Morocco
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3rd of December
خمن من القادم للعشاء
للمخرج : ستانلي كريمر
أمريكا
about the film
on wikipedia
Guess Who's Coming for Dinner
Directed by: Stanley Kramer
U.S.A
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10th of December
البطل
للمخرج : زانج يمو
الصين
official site of the movie
Hero
Directed by: Zhang Yimou
China
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17th of December
في الخامسة بعد الظهر
للمخرجة : سميرة مخملباف
إيران
about the film
At Five in the Afternoon
Directed by: Samira Makhmalbaf
Iran
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24th of December
عطر الحب

للمخرج : لي جيونج
كوريا الجنوبية
about the film
Scent of Love
Directed by: Lee Jeong
South Korea
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So basically its every Sunday
Screening starts at 7:00pm
In Al-Qibliyya School

Schedule and links taken from 2 6 8. He also has a map of the place there if you're interested. Thanks antihero.

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

On warriors and what not

This is the sequence of events if you're new to this:
رسومات إباحية في مقرر الأدب الإنكليزي في الجامعة
الفهيد يمنع كتاب الأدب الإنكليزي ويحيل مسؤولين إلى التحقيق
العنزي يدعو الطبطبائي إلى التحقق من كيفية تدريس كتاب في الجامعة يحوي تجاوزات أخلاقية
الفهيد: لا رسوم إباحية في مقرر الإنكليزي
بلقيس النجار: الإرهاب الفكري



What started as a response to individual comments in my previous post began to spread into its own post. So following up on the previous post, I choose to insert my reply here:

Action needs to be taken. But that does not diminish the effect of whining and bitching on this blog. I think whining and bitching can lead to action, or even compliment action.
With that said, I agree with the sentiment that calls for action. What would you like to do about those censors who are blind to culture?
At a time when our faculty, among other faculties, is working towards being internationally accredited, we have these forces of darkness who can and will put a stop to any progressive thought. The censoring of art is only one part of this. There is an even more dangerous censoring of thought. If we are not permitted to think freely and without fear, then the matter of banning a book because of some indecent paintings is just the start. What's next?
Kuwait university is not a shitty institution. I have met quite a few enlightened minds among my students and fellow faculty members. It is true that their voices are usually low, but that is the unfortunate result of this open-mindedness that puts me at a position of accepting the oposing thought even when this opposing thought disagrees with my basic rights. We are not quiet because we are passive. We are quiet because we are not aggressive. Politics demands aggressive action. I am not an aggressive person. And I refuse to be an aggressive person, even realizing that my apparent passivity makes my voice hard to hear. I strongly believe in allowing the other to voice their thoughts. How would I raise my voice when I know that raising my voice would shush other voices?
I know most of you disagree with this. I know that most of you think that passivity is not accepted at this stage. But I cannot change what I believe in just to win a cause, no matter how important that cause is. I might have made that mistake before, and I might make it again in the future. But I refuse to knowingly make it now.

I cannot yell and mute other voices. I cannot scream that my opinion is the only right opinion. I simply cannot do that. I have always thought that was because I didn't have enough strength to do that. But I have lately come to realize that my passivity is part of my nature, a nature that refuses to allow me to enforce my thoughts on anyone.

If you're a warrior, go ahead and grab your sword. I am no warrior.

Thursday, November 02, 2006

The Norton Anthology of Pornography

القبس 1 نوفمبر 2006
اثارت بعض الرسومات الاباحية التي تضمنها كتاب مقرر الشعر في اللغة الانكليزية في كلية الآداب استياء بعض الطلبة الذين ابدوا ل'القبس' اعتراضهم على مثل هذه الرسومات التي تتعارض مع قيم المجتمع الكويتي.
القبس 2 نوفمبر 2006
وقالت المصادر ان الفهيد - الذي لم يكن يعلم بما يحويه الكتاب من رسومات اباحية - سيحيل عددا من الاساتذة في الاداب وهم المسؤولون عن تدريس الكتاب للتحقيق ايضا لتدريسه رغم علمهم بالرسومات
العنزي يدعو الطبطبائي إلى التحقق من كيفية تدريس كتاب في الجامعة يحوي تجاوزات أخلاقية
متسائلا: ما علاقة الشعر والأدب بالرسومات الاباحية؟
وأكد ان الأدب يعني ارتقاء في الفكر والسلوك والقيم بينما احتواء هذا الكتاب على مثل هذه التجاوزات الأخلاقية تدمير للقيم وهدم للمبادئ، متسائلا: ما علاقة الشعر والأدب بالرسومات الاباحية؟فضلا عن منافاته لقيم ديننا الإسلامي الحنيف

The problem is that the dean has my copy now so I can't post those pictures here :(
Now tell me seriously, where is this country heading if art is now seen as pornography, and if the Norton is a book to shock?
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UPDATE
exhibit A, B, and C (Click to enlarge)

masaccio The Garden of Eden with the Fall of Man freud

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

Todo Sobre Mi Madre (All About My Mother)



"They call me “La Agrado” … because I’ve always tried to make people’s lives agreeable. As well as being agreeable, I’m very authentic! Look at this body! All made to measure. Almond-shaped eyes – 80,000. Nose – 200,000. A waste of money. Another beating the following year left it like this. It gives me character, but if I’ve know, I wouldn’t have touched it. I’ll continue. Tits – two, because I’m no monster. 70,000 each, but I’ve more than earned that back. Silicone in – Lips, forehead, cheeks, hips and ass. A pin costs about 100,000 so you work it out, because I’ve lost count. Jaw reduction – 75,000. Computer laser depilation … because women, like men, also come from apes. 60,000 a session. It depends how hairy you are. Usually two to four sessions. But if you’re a flamenco diva, you’ll need more. Well, as I was saying … it costs a lot to be authentic, ma’am. And one can’t be stingy with these things … because you are more authentic the more you resemble what you’ve dreamed of being."


This is how Agrado, one of the many interesting characters in Almodovar's movie, captivated her audience. I fell in love with Almodovar when I watched Hable con Ella (Talk to Her) a few years back. Todre Sobre Mi Madre is another of his masterpieces.

Thank you Coquette for giving me the movie, and since ne habla espagnol, thank you also Attiya for providing me with the English version.

Friday, October 27, 2006

ROME

roma


I'm becoming quite a TV junkie. My latest obsession is Rome. Here's one of the interesting dialogues in the show:

Titus Pullo: What are they. Stars?
Lucius Vorenus: Stars. They're holes in the celestial spheres. Holes through which the light of the heavens shine
TP: How big are these holes?
LV: They’re big. They only seem small to us because they’re hundreds of miles away.
TP: Big enough for a man to climb through?
LV: I suppose. A man would never be able to get up there in the first place.
TP: I don’t see why not?
LV: How?
TP: He could hold on to a giant bird.
LV: It doesn’t work like that.
TP: Why not?
LV: It’s philosophy. Hard to explain. (At which point, short for an answer, LV escapes into sleep)

Titus is becoming a favorite of mine. If nothing else, he seems to know his way around women. But that's another matter. This is Titus debating 'philosophy'